Photo-A-Day 2014: Day 8

This is a personal project I commence in January where I take a photograph of my children each day. This exercise stretches me as a photographer, as a mother, and as a journalist. This is my 3rd year on this project and I hope to continue it as the years pass.
Day 8

He's 6. This is the child who continually reminds me how much I need to stay close to Jesus and glean HIS patience, endurance and grace. Ethan gets a gold star in the battle of wills. He tries to see how far he can push me to my breaking point. I get close some days. A few days I am pushed past the point. Most days I stand pretty firm, and those are the days when I fall into bed exhausted.

This is the child who also bears his heart and soul regarding how he feels about me: he loves me, he's so angry at me, he thinks I'm the best mom in the whole world, he's tired of my rules and stipulations, he thinks I make him the worst food in the world, he thinks I make the best macaroni and cheese, he loves to snuggle with me in the mornings, he wants his own room, he wants to sleep in my bed, he wants me to sing him one more lullaby, he doesn't want to be around me anymore; it goes from one extreme to the other with Ethan.

I often scratch my head wondering what REALLY goes on in his mind. Sometimes he doesn't understand why he's so bad, yet there are times when he's so good, my heart nearly bursts with pride. He's the dominant child in our family; the other kids look to him for decisions and answers, yet there is a lot of insecurity and fear deep under the surface. This child is an enigma and can be very difficult at times.

Yet I look into his blue, blue eyes and am so thankful for his childlike faith in me, the way he adores his daddy, the way he befriends his siblings, the way he cares for his baby brother and I wonder what God has in store for him.

He will be great one day. I'm so proud of this guy.

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