My Hysterectomy Story: How I am REALLY doing

Truthfully, this has been a hard journey.  In the midst of one of the busiest seasons of my life, I faced a health crisis.  I am tired and overwhelmed.  There has been several days where I just want to curl up in a fetal position in my bed and sleep the day away because I didn’t want to face the pain or the decisions that I had to make.

Other troubles within my family have reared their heads during this crisis of mine and I have felt I was just one step away from tumbling down into despair.

Yet, I have SO MUCH to be thankful for in my situation:

  • The treatment for my health issue is reasonable.
  • Not only is the treatment going to remove the fibroids, It is going to be cutting-edge with a minimal recovery period (1 night hospital stay, 1 week until driving, 2-3 weeks until normal activity).
  • I have a supportive husband
  • My family is stepping up to give me a community I can count on.  They are THERE for me in this.
  • My kids are praying for me and their faith is growing in this  

For these reasons, I am truly thankful.

I am struggling the most with loosing my uterus.  Even though we have already taken steps to not have children anymore, the truth that I CAN’T have children anymore is a struggle emotionally.  

I hope that some of my symptoms will disappear after surgery, but it is not guaranteed.  Dr. S has told me that the only thing he can guarantee from my surgery is that I will not have the fibroids anymore and that I will not have a period anymore (can I get a Hallelujah????),  but my other symptoms may/may not improve, though he thinks there is a chance they will.  I understand that he can’t guarantee and I appreciate his honesty.

I am also concerned how my body will respond to not having my uterus.  I know that my hormones are affected by my ovaries, which I am keeping, but still…

I wonder how my sex life will be post-op, both physically and emotionally.

I wonder what recovery will be like, how painful will it really be?  Will I really recover as quickly as Dr. S says?  What will life be like during recovery? How will I cope? How much pain will I really be in?

Will I be able to handle anesthsia?

How will my kids respond in all of this?

What about my husband?

Really, in all honesty, I am at peace with this surgery and that this is now part of My Story.  I am hoping that My Story will help others with their story, just like others stories has helped me with mine.

I have fear and questions, but I mostly have peace.

What about you?  Are you facing a major health issue?  How are you feeling about it?  Is fear is gripping you about something and you long for peace?  Where have you found peace in the fear?  I’d love to hear your story!  Please leave me a comment, share with me your story.  

1 comment :

  1. Praying for you as you enter surgery this morning. I am glad to know that Mom is with your kids, and Dad is at the hospital with Patrick. Looking forward to hearing from you after the procedure is over! (no rush, though. JUST GET BETTER.)

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